Wednesday, June 09, 2010

When he said those 3 words ...

The world seemed to have stopped suddenly…. It felt like all my dreams came crashing down all at once…..
My hands were shivering…..I was sweating like hell….My mind was racing……I was unable to think clearly……. I dint know what to do….
Only 1 thing seemed obvious….
I called 911…
I had never seen an accident happen from such a close proximity…..it happened right in front of my eyes….
The worst part….it happened to him…..
He was hit by a car….
I met him at one of the bday parties….His deep eyes had a sense of mystery in them……I had an instant crush on him……..needless to mention, even he was interested in me ……..
But that was 3 yrs ago……Now we are very close friends……he had been there for me always………Though I suspect that TFIFM (The feeling is *ing mutual :P ) , for some reason things never went any further than just being friends……may b it was coz of the fear of ‘losing a best friend’ if the feeling wasn’t mutual…..
But now, He was lying in front of me in a pool of blood. ….. I was too shocked to say anything…….A crowd gathered around us…..we were waiting for the ambulance….the sound of emergency vehicle used to annoy me so much….but now I was craving to hear one……..I was ready to do anything it takes to save him…….
But I could see….he was dying…
He had already lost lot of blood ….. I refused to accept the fact that I will lose him if this continues….
I was praying……praying with all my heart…
I just wished this was like one of those dreams in my blogs…..but it was happening for real…..the warmth of tears flowing down was real……the pain with which he was wallowing in front of my eyes was real…..my love for him was real….
I hated my helplessness…..I hated god for letting this happen…..I decided not to ever pray if I lose him….
It was past 15mins……there was no sign of an ambulance….I wondered what was taking them soo long..
I knew I had to keep him conscious….I was trying to tell him not worry and things will be perfectly alright…..just to boost up his confidence and help him fight the pain……..but ofcourse the delivery of those words accompanied by my tears failed to serve the purpose…..both of us suspected , the end was close….
I could see his moist eyes which I felt always held some secret…..He was lying in my lap , holding my hand…..he was trying to say something…..from all the effort he was putting in it, I knew it was something important…..n infact, I felt I knew what he was going to say…..the words which I had always been longing to hear him say…
He said…..." Ek Limca milega? " :P….lol….


PS: This blog is being released with an alternate ending for non-hindi readers :P

He said ....."Call my girlfriend" :P




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Tuesday, June 08, 2010

Is he the one ??!!

"Treeeeeeeng Treeeeeeeng....Treeeeeeeeng Treeeeeeeng"
Rang my phone alarm.....
I woke up reluctant to open my eyes.....It was 6:15 am.....thankk god, there is smething called snooozzee......got used to postponing everything......there i go, trying to sleep for 10more mins...
After a series of god-knws-how-many snoozes as usual, i woke up........1 hr later, i was on my way to the airport........
I was goin 2 Texas........i was goin 2 meet him.......overloaded with a heavy bag in hand and a heavier Question in mind......Is he "The One"???.....
Marriages are made in heaven is wt i have heard......n i ought to believe in it now......
I never really trusted in arranged marriages........may b for the fact that deciding your life partner by meeting a handful times is not a cakewalk.....
When you are meeting smeone with the intention of marrying, you obviously are not your actual self.....you dress your best, you try to be your best......you are hardly urself.....n thts wt makes things difficult to decide.......marrying someone with whom you have no history or bonding with......
Love seems to be a better and enthusiastic idea......There is a casual "getting-to-know-you" phase where you are just friends, you spend time with each other and you discover each others pet peeves, quirks , whims and fantasies.......But in love what generally happens is, both are at their best to impress each other. They behave , walk, talk , do things as what the other likes....i.e one changes for the other......But this cant continue forever.......n marriage gives it a break.....the real person comes out after the marraige.......no more impressings, no more sacrifices, and then starts trouble :P......
Classifying the success of a marriage on the basis of arranged or love is mere foolishness( in my view)..... A successful unity between two people requires willingness, compromise, love and commitment. These aspects can be found in either type of marriage.......The actual beauty of a relationship is where everyday you discover a new thing about your partner.....

My phone rang.....It was him.....this was the 3rd time i was talking to him......I told him i am on the way to the airport....he was happpy....
I got down to the airport shuttle.....the airport was unusually scarsely populated......may b coz it was a weekday...

Got into the flight much before time......i had 4 hrs before i wud meet him.........n i had only 4 hrs to argue with myself if i can decide a yes/no about a guy by meeting him only once !!......
The a/c was intolerrably high......but still i discovered myself sweating.....n restless....i wondered why i felt so restless......may be it was All of it -- the years spent waiting for spl smeone , the criticality of the decision, you being judged by what you talk/do at that time, meeting smeone for the 1st time with sme spl intention- but was romantic in its own way as i hadnt expected....

Mind was racing with thoughts....some gud....some funny.....some scary.......
I was unable to sleep.....broke the tradition of the only-thing-to-do-in-flight is to sleep........after 2 hrs which seemed like 2 yrs, was glad to hear the final announcement of landing......i realized that, i was actually excited to meet him.......wowww!! :))......
I had seen his pic.....he was gud looking (acc to the pic atleast)......wondered what he wud look like in real.....the fact that the pics given for matrimonial purpose are generally either tampered with or are usually clicked when you are just 21, made me more anxious/curious/hmmm worried in fact......i gave my recent pic though.....n i believe i dint change much since past many yrs :)) :P (atleast heightwise :P )....
Landed in the airport......recognised him at very first glance......he was toooo charming........”Ohh! so love at first sight does happen!” I thought! :P.....
He looked much better than the pic......but not so younger though....."matured look" i wud call :P :P.....
We reciprocated "hiii"s.......and after answering his questionaire about my journey we were on the way to a restaurant....
I cant help but comment on his car......it was sme mercedes one........i wud hav married him jus for that :P.........
The drive to the restaurent was a long one.........he was talking talking and talking.......n to my surprise i found myself in the most silent phase of my life.......i never was this silent....."Whats wrong with me" I thought......
We reached the restaurent.......It was a pretty gud one with wonderful ambience......n a even more wonderful menu.....but i decided not to eat much....i ordered half of what i wud otherwise have ordered......
"Only this much??....is that your lunch order ?? " He asked......
what do i say....shud i tell him that i am in no mood to eat coz i am actually damnn tensed.....or shud i tel him about my everyday resolutions of serious dieting and breaking the resolution before every meal :P.......or shud i start a conversation about what my fav dishes are.......or shud i tell him about my condition that he should share the cooking part also if he decides to marry me :P....
I jus smiled.......
He placed his order and the waitress left......
"Nee guirnchi emaina cheppu " (soo tell me about urself)...he asked....
That sounded like a typical HR interview question......i had read many standard answers for tht Q during my undergrad placement interviews......but now this is a different interview i am in.....and the Q was indeed logical.....coz he spoke a lot abt himself during the drive and i was sitting like a dumb girl......now it ws my turn....but wher do i start......what excatly shud i tell......what excatly about me......I can write novels about myself :P.....but i cnt write an essay.....i mean, to describe everything briefly isnt very easy........i mean i cnt start off with my educational background and then the family background like in a typical HR interview.....
"enti antha kham ga unnavu....nuvvu ekkuva matladava" (you arent speaking at all....are is this reserved always)....he asked...
hmmm...noo i am never like this....i can actually talk for hrs on phne......tht too as loudly as if that person can hear directly without the phone connection.......not to mention my overusage atnt phone bill :P......i generally believe i can talk very comfortably with any starnger......but whyy nowww????.....
"ala emi ledu....jus em matladalo artham kavatledu " (It not like that, jus that i hav no clue what exactly to talk ", i replied.....
"Nee hobbies enti cheppu" (what are your hobbies), He asked.....
abbaaaaa thats like the Q i hate most, coz i hate the fact that i dont hav any hobbies lately......i wanted to ask if sleeping can be called a hobby :P......coz thts the thing i wud prefer to do on any holiday.....or else just hang out with freinds......but other than that what do i enjoy doing......i used to watch a lot of movies and read a lot of novels but its been really long since i read one .....became lazy to do anything......not finding time is the lame excuse i give to myself...
"In free time I watch random videos on youtube, else most of the times I am either on phone or sleeping or eating :P ", i answered......that was my safe answer....
i was scared to answer anything related to movies coz i dint want him to knw hw terrible i am at hollywood movies.......i dnt knw y but I get soo confused with all hollywud actors/actresses ......i wonder what happens to my soo much acclaimed memory power when it comes to remembering the hollywud names.....whatever i am today (in terms of hollywud gyan) is because of my bro.....bcoz if his strict assignments to me to watching sme gud movies and smetimes even sitting beside me and showing me sme scenes which he loves the most and explaining them when i dnt understnd the accent/intent/both :P.....
Our orders were ready and we started eating.......i was indeed hungry......excausted with thinking and thinking.....
He asked about my engineering life.....and my thoughts flew to my engg college, gang, fun and friendship.....n i started talking.....
i started talking about my engineering life....all about it.....hw much i enjoyed it...hw much i m missing it right now......
I told him about my inter and engg friends.....and hw close we are.....and hw much i love them.....
I started to talk about myself and my life.....i was rediscovering myself........i felt i am back.......
It was 9 pm......It was time to leave.......i had to fly bac the same day.......
I enjoyed the time with him.....but then is that enough a thing to decide a yes/no?........i need more time I thought.....
I was happy.......for some reason......he was just too cute.......i liked him.......
15 mins after the flight started i started feeling sleepy.........in no more than 5 mins, i was fast asleep.....

Treeeeenggg treeeeennnggg.......Treeeennggggg Treeenngggg.....
Now this was the alarm again........and i woke up to find myself in my own cozy room at home.........only to realize that it was all a dream :))....hehehe

That was enough of imagination for now ;)).....
I don’t really care if you believe it to be true! :P…

PS:

To my future husband :P ,
see I am imagining all stuff without anything happening for real…don’t u think its hightime??!!.....why don’t u just land in my life ASAP!!......looking forward to meeting you……
ur love :P,
Harika



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Friday, June 04, 2010

I wish you knew...















With u, time jus flew...
With every second, feelings for u grew..
I never knew...
That dreams do come true....

You held my heart's cue..
driving me crazy everyday anew..
i love you...i really do..
but to u, i was jus a hobby to pursue...

Dint get even the slightest clue.....
Now,Everything seems so new....
Out of proportion, the things blew..
beyond my comprehension is the reason for this sudden slew...
Never thought this would ensue..

But now, i miss you..
As much as i need you...
To some dull shade i hue...
I feel lonely even amidst a large crew...
feels like there is some curfew :P..

In the church, i sit alone on the pew..
N with soo many assignments due :P
the sorrows in me only seem to accrue..
u hav no idea what i am goin through...
and no one is there to rescue...

Under the sky so blue..
the touch of mornings dew...
and the cold wind that blew..
remind me of the moments few...

Why dont u understand my point of view...
u dont care is what i construe...
Buried Deep in me is a question for u...
Dont you miss me too ???

P.S: My bro says any1 wid a less than 144 IQ...
wud actually believe its all true!

[ Nw plz dont bug me with 'what happened' queries.....Dint come across any guy so far who is worth soo much of emotion.....its all fictious......jus a fantasy......that i love someone n he doesnt reciprocate.....the only fantasy which i wish it doesnt come true :)......wierd fantasy :D I knw!!.....]



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Tuesday, June 01, 2010

When I look at them, I see a fairy tale.....

“WHEN I LOOK AT THEM TOGETHER, I FEEL LIKE FALLING IN LOVE….”


A perfect couple!! ….describing them together is the most difficult task ever !!!....


Ok lemme write abt wt I feel abt them individually b4 I cn try putting them together in words…..
Sahiti…….The words ”Cute” and “Sweet” seem to be framed for her……I cn write pages together abt her coz v share the sameeee wavelength…….her sense of humour is simple amazing…….she is kid at times where u ll feel “How sweet!!”(At times “How dumb!!”hehe [:p])……n at times she is soo responsible tht u ll feel “How smart!!”…..she is the kind of a gal any guy wud ask for……with soo many innumerable number of memorable funn times v spent together,its hard to describe her in words……coz the more close ppl r, the more difficult it becomes to write a testimonial……She cn be described with a gal with gr8 sense….both common sense and sense of humour……has an awesome atitude and personality …..always wears a sweet smile on her face…..gives a lot of importance to friends…… a practical approach to everything….shares evrythin under the sun with us…….has her sweet voice (This para abt sahi is bound to contain the word ‘sweet’ many times coz evrythin abt her is indeed sweet!!)…….. n hey hw cn one forget her talkative nature….n hey her love for food…….n her beautiful n silky hair……n her wonderful way of narrating boring things in an interesting way…..huh!! I actually wanted this para to b short n sweet like her (nw she is gonna kill me for the word ‘short’ [:p]) bt ther is soo much one cn write about her…..her company is soo much funn…….all-in-all she is kind of a person who lives her life to the fullest…….extracting max out of life…..bt she ws sucha practical person tht years ago I wud never hav believed tht she ll be soo selflessly interested in smeone and fall in love soo deeply……bt after all love has a magic in it!!!

Hmmm ok abt Arjun……A cool guy with gr8 sense of humour…smeone with whom u cn never even dream of getting bored…..his witty remarks n spontaneous remarks can woo anyone n everyone…….really an interestin person to the core…..its always funn with him around……the best part of him is his ever lastin smile.....n when he is not smiling, he is seen laughing…..bt hey dnt get carried away, coz he is actually laughing at you, coz appatike edo sarcatic joke nee meeda vesi untadu…..asssalu dobbatam lo No1….kanti choopu tho champadam is common ya…..bt noti matalatho champadam smethin spl ya [:p]……ultimately a funn person to be with……except for the teasing part the conversations with him r always enjoyable [:p]……all-in-all a very bindaas n cool person…..be it in looks, attitude or nature, he is the most eligible bachelor…..a very pragmatic person……he ws not a kind of a person who ll fall in love soo deeply…….. bt after all love has a magic in it!!!


So basically this is a story of 2 practical persons…..so much alike in everythin…..who met in orkut by chance…..n it happened!!!.....


What amazes me is the way it all started..…The story is incredible but I saw it happen….


And nw…..Watching them together is like festival to both eyes ( Kantiki pandaga :P )….we, who knw them well are bound to feel happy for them ….n those who dnt knw them r bound to feel jealous of their ‘anyonyata’[Telugu varam manam, telugee matladudam!! :P]….The CHEMISTRY they share is amazing…….The HISTORY of all these years has only increased their love beyond limits……...Even the distance in GEOGRAPHY (Banglore 2 Hyderabad) cudnt stand between their love……The MATHEMATICS magician named cupid ended up in adding both their hearts (hehe…creativity koncham over ayindi kada)…..n in PHYSICS, I can only frame “Gravitation cannot be held responsible for them falling in love” (:P :P)……


Asaalu Sahiti & Nagarjun, is like the cutest sweetest hottest pair Ever!!!! ( Letting then enjoy this status till I find my spl smeone :P).....seriously I wonder hw cn smeone find a partner soo similar to eachother…….They are similar to each other in literally everythin (I mean except the gender part!! :P)…….The way they hav funn with each other is soo sweet…..They have compatibility, understanding, wavelength match…….i have seen them go thru many different phases…..when she cries, he cheers her up ….when he is angry, she gets him bac to normal by her sweet manner….both of them never lose their temper together…..there is always one of them who brings the love come alive…..so at the end of the day, its always a happy ending….with lots of hugs n kisses [:p]……They are indeed awfully cute together…….The couple which flashes in my mind when I hear the phrase “Made for each other”…….


These two stand as testimony that love is the greatest emotion humans can ever experience………. They're are sooo adorable together……veryy cute couple…...my sweet darlings they are……. Really perfect for one another!..........These two always look so happy together... so much in love……. Always laughing, kidding n joking with each other…..Everyone should be this lucky…...


Hey Sa n Arjun, you are an inspiration for lovers in waiting....like me :) :D


I hope your marriage is the accomplishment of a beautiful dream and the beginning of more beautiful dreams……
I wish you both a lifetime of happiness, togetherness and fulfillment!
Happy married life !
Luv u guyzzz...




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Women are complex ! ...Amen!

One of my all time Favorite forwarded email:

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"HER" DIARY

Day night, I thought he was acting weird. We had made plans to meet at a cafe to have some coffee. I was shopping with my friends all day long, so I thought he was upset at the fact that I was a bit late,but he made no comment.Conversation wasn't flowing so I suggested that we go somewhere quiet so we could talk, he agreed but he kept quiet and absent. I asked him what was wrong - he said, "Nothing."I asked him if it was my fault that he was upset. He said it had nothing to do with me
and not to worry.
On the way home I told him that I loved him, he simply smiled and kept driving. I can't explain his behavior; I don't know why he didn't say, "I love u, too."When we got home I felt as if I had lost him, as if he wanted nothing to do with me anymore. He just sat there and watched TV. He seemed distant and absent.
Finally I decided to go to bed. About 10 minutes later he came to bed. I decided
that I could not take it anymore, so I decided to confront him with the situation but he had fallen asleep.I started crying and cried until I too fell asleep. I don't know what to do. I'm almost sure that his thoughts are with someone else. My life is a disaster.


"HIS" DIARY

Today India lost the world cup against Pakistan.
DAAM IT.

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hehehe :)

"Men are from earth. Women are from earth . Deal with it !!! :P " Huhaha




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