Today being the teachers day….cnt help bt write abt my mam ,mrs.swathi…..who recently left us all….:((((((((
Ok for those of u who r nt aware of this all….she is my lecturer in osmania engg college…..n who has been with our class more thn any other lecturer……bore us for more than 3 sems…..n the best part being the fact tht her class has been the most lively n entertaining of all…..innumerable number of memories attached to her classes!!!
N the news of her sudden demise made me totally numb ….it is smething I still find it difficult to digest…..n b4 I cud cme out of the stupor state, the sorrowful scenes of her cremation ceremony never seem to leave me short of haunting me…….evrythin still seem 2 appear in front of my eyes……n both her kids who r hardly aware of wts happenin !!! very pathetic!!:(((
I ws happy till 2nd of sept tht I hav many sweet memories attributed to my college……ther r a listless memories worth cherishing for a life time….bt this incident has shattered all my memories…..i wsnt soo very personally attached to her….bt still no idea y all this is disturbin me soo badly…..esp the BME dept (wher they claim to find her body) is scaring me more thn ever…..n the most disturbing part of evrythin is her death being claimed as a suicide…..bt most of us feel tht all the things r bizzaringly connected and the whole sequence of events r mysterious enuf to b suspected as a murder…..n all of us r well aware of wt happens to such cases in our country….n the bottom line is they r gonna close the case as a suicide…thts itt!!!.....n v r as helpless as ever!!!.....
Ther ws a lesson named “ god sees the truth but waits” which I studied long bac in my school days…which I actually never liked it for I felt it all soo unfair(ok for those of u who remember the story ll understand y…….anyway no intentions of writing the story here!!)……bt the key moral worth appreciating abt the story is tht evn if the culprit succeds in doin the mischief…..evn if he escapes the eyes of justice….ther is god up ther who keeps a watch of evrythin happening….n he ll punish the culprit sme day (n THIS smeday takes tooo long in the story which I dint like)........
N in this case, madam killing herself sounds too improbable to me…..So for nw wt i cn do is jus to pray tht if at all wt v suspect is true, then the culprit shud b punished in the court of god…..seeming too philosophical I gues….bt thts the only thing I cn hope for nw…..!!!
With recent deaths of close ppl, I m damn scared to receiv cals on my ph…..unknowingly I pray nt to get any bad news to hear…..nwadays my heart literally throbs until I hear smethin usual wn getting cls fm an unexpected num……n at times I drift to a philosophical frame of mind due to this increasing death rate…..
Ok so today being the teachers day….bday of Dr.Sarvepalli Radhakrishna (I hoooooooope everyone reading this is aware of this fact…..it happened 2day tht I ws watchin etv news wher interviews with sme students(aged 20+) were aired who think teachers day is celebrated on occasion of Sardar vallab bhai patel’s bday..…huh!!! damn shamefull right??......
This teachers day for me has been full of reminders of swathi mam…..really sad tht she is no more with us…..wt v cn do for her is to pay 2mins silence as a tribute for evrythin she has dne for us…….may her soul rest in peace……
Mam…v love u….
V ll miss u a lot !!!
Tuesday, September 05, 2006
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
“yeah !!!!.....Its 15th of august!!!!”
Independence day!!!……wellll jusssst another holiday for most of us…..…almost all of us don’t really realize the importance of independence…..it means different to different ppl…..to us teenagers (oooops!!! Better say youngsters!!!), indepence may mean goin 2 late night movies, no offences on our expences , not a word of abuse from parents, getting permission for sleeping over at friend’s place , having guys in our gang….blah blah……this is wt v cl freedom…..bt v hardly pay any heed to the importance of india’s independence n the freedom struggle…..
The way v celebrate this day is by attending a flag hoisting ceremony (long bac in school tht too), tryin to move lips acc to the national anthem being sung by others(I cn bet many of us dnt rem the lines perfectly), sendin happy independence day forwards by sms (the num being much less thn on friendship day or valentines day), watchin spl progs at hme being aired on ths occation……n this is wt v cl the celebration for independence……huh!!!!......i being nt an exception to all this really feel guilty of the soo sheer hopeless n helpless condition of todays generation……ther has been a drastic change in the attitude itself….ofcourse v cnt expect the selflessness of our freedom fighters in the youth of today bt atleast ther must b a sense of responsibility towards our country n a sense of respect for the ppl who cud evn give away their lives for our motherland…..our patriotism is limited only to the times of war n cricket matches……v hav to bring a change in our attitude n ideology.
A gr8 change at the family level itself is evident that talking in terms of much bigger arena such as country seems soo illogical to me……frankly speakin, the affection n helpful attitude ppl had for each other has almost vanished in the urban society……ppl r soo busy with their careers tht they hardly find time to spend with their close family itself leav apart thinking abt county n its growth…….ppl r soo engrossed in their personal benefit tht they hardly realize the hopeless situation our country is presently in…..though most of us knw it very well, v jus escape it coz v anyway cnt change it…...with a dirty system of politics n the inherent unavoidable corruption has become the part n parcel of our country 2day……wt v cn do is jus sneer at the system, express our frustration thru writings like this n thts itt!!!......cnt do anything else……v actually dnt want to take any risk….basically cowards ana mata …..n with all this v r celebrating independence day( if at all u cl this a celebration!!!)……v r indebted by millions n millions of dollars to world bank n v cl this independent india !!!!......v cnt get any work done at any govt office without payin anything under the table n v cl ths independent India!!!......hmmmm soundin very much filmi na….
With the craze of evrythin being westernized ,v hardly realize the speciality of India…..india is a place with awesome sceneries in jammu n Kashmir (((oops!! Any Pakistani reading this???? ))))….many green fields make us feel real heaven on earth….. India is the country with a lot of man power((( population, I mean!!.....nw comon I never meant thaaaat man power which led to the population [:d])))….india is the county having a lot of brain power ( all v IT professionals n other scholars of whom usa is takin full advantage !!!)….india is full of many natural resourses than any othr country……this is a country wher u ll always find friends in strangers unlike anywhere else wher the relations r very cold……this is a country which embraces all other cultures n still maintains its unique nature……it’s a country with such a rich n cultural heritage…….its a country with a great history…….
n with all this v hav still leant to dislike our country because of its present state……n obviously our frustration to the present system is curtaining all the positive features…...nw isn’t it our responsibility to highlight all the positives n curb all the evils prevalent today…..ya I knw, saying is easy…..bt bringin words into effect is all wt is needed to change the scenario……bt all this seems to b very much a distant dream!!!......if all v youngsters throw a blind eye towards everything like nw then expecting any change wud b counted as mere foolishness…....an awareness has to enlighten us with the sense of responsibility towards our society n then v cn bring out our own solution to the situation…..bt ths may nt b as easy as the software solution on which v struggle day n night……this essentially involves gr8 deal of selflessness n guts!!!….n thts itt!!!.....v cn change our India into our dream land……. After all India is our country!!!....a place we are all born!!!......our motherland……our home!!!!!.........n lets come together n join hands to work towards bringing the words “mera bharat mahaan” come alive!!!!
Jai Hind
“happy independence day”
The way v celebrate this day is by attending a flag hoisting ceremony (long bac in school tht too), tryin to move lips acc to the national anthem being sung by others(I cn bet many of us dnt rem the lines perfectly), sendin happy independence day forwards by sms (the num being much less thn on friendship day or valentines day), watchin spl progs at hme being aired on ths occation……n this is wt v cl the celebration for independence……huh!!!!......i being nt an exception to all this really feel guilty of the soo sheer hopeless n helpless condition of todays generation……ther has been a drastic change in the attitude itself….ofcourse v cnt expect the selflessness of our freedom fighters in the youth of today bt atleast ther must b a sense of responsibility towards our country n a sense of respect for the ppl who cud evn give away their lives for our motherland…..our patriotism is limited only to the times of war n cricket matches……v hav to bring a change in our attitude n ideology.
A gr8 change at the family level itself is evident that talking in terms of much bigger arena such as country seems soo illogical to me……frankly speakin, the affection n helpful attitude ppl had for each other has almost vanished in the urban society……ppl r soo busy with their careers tht they hardly find time to spend with their close family itself leav apart thinking abt county n its growth…….ppl r soo engrossed in their personal benefit tht they hardly realize the hopeless situation our country is presently in…..though most of us knw it very well, v jus escape it coz v anyway cnt change it…...with a dirty system of politics n the inherent unavoidable corruption has become the part n parcel of our country 2day……wt v cn do is jus sneer at the system, express our frustration thru writings like this n thts itt!!!......cnt do anything else……v actually dnt want to take any risk….basically cowards ana mata …..n with all this v r celebrating independence day( if at all u cl this a celebration!!!)……v r indebted by millions n millions of dollars to world bank n v cl this independent india !!!!......v cnt get any work done at any govt office without payin anything under the table n v cl ths independent India!!!......hmmmm soundin very much filmi na….
With the craze of evrythin being westernized ,v hardly realize the speciality of India…..india is a place with awesome sceneries in jammu n Kashmir (((oops!! Any Pakistani reading this???? ))))….many green fields make us feel real heaven on earth….. India is the country with a lot of man power((( population, I mean!!.....nw comon I never meant thaaaat man power which led to the population [:d])))….india is the county having a lot of brain power ( all v IT professionals n other scholars of whom usa is takin full advantage !!!)….india is full of many natural resourses than any othr country……this is a country wher u ll always find friends in strangers unlike anywhere else wher the relations r very cold……this is a country which embraces all other cultures n still maintains its unique nature……it’s a country with such a rich n cultural heritage…….its a country with a great history…….
n with all this v hav still leant to dislike our country because of its present state……n obviously our frustration to the present system is curtaining all the positive features…...nw isn’t it our responsibility to highlight all the positives n curb all the evils prevalent today…..ya I knw, saying is easy…..bt bringin words into effect is all wt is needed to change the scenario……bt all this seems to b very much a distant dream!!!......if all v youngsters throw a blind eye towards everything like nw then expecting any change wud b counted as mere foolishness…....an awareness has to enlighten us with the sense of responsibility towards our society n then v cn bring out our own solution to the situation…..bt ths may nt b as easy as the software solution on which v struggle day n night……this essentially involves gr8 deal of selflessness n guts!!!….n thts itt!!!.....v cn change our India into our dream land……. After all India is our country!!!....a place we are all born!!!......our motherland……our home!!!!!.........n lets come together n join hands to work towards bringing the words “mera bharat mahaan” come alive!!!!
Jai Hind
“happy independence day”
Wednesday, April 26, 2006
FAREWELL WEEK!!!!!!
Time just flew!!!.......dint give me a slightest hint of the fact tht “The end” to my engg life (hopefully nt student life) has finally come…..huh!!! a stand with 2 emotions!!!……extremely happy tht v r all set for our careers n nw can come out with flyin colors in life…..bt then comes the deepest unfathomable sorrow of parting with soo many near n dear guyz…..…hmmmm gals also le (heheh)….…..n after our farewell party v r gonna part!!!!……..parting after partying heheh sounds fu
nny na…..
It feels like its just a few months ago tht v were all in the landscape garden having loads n loads of fun in our freshers week…..1st yr ws indeed memorable…..with aaal the reciting of bd’s……with all ragging( the so cald interaction between seniors n juniors hehe)…..with all the proposals ( the best part of all!!!!!.......aaaaahhhh feels gr8 tht soo many guys proposed me……so wt if it ws a part of ragging, heheh!!!!!)……with all the singin n dancing (though it ws nt funn tht time….it feels gud nw to think abt it all…..)…..n ya the aakruti2002….really unforgettable…….so much funn…..the narthana esp…may b coz v r a part of it…awesome experience
N then the 2nd yr……memorable in its own way…….well!!! few things cnt b mentioned here…..few bitter sorrows hauntin me for hurting someone very sweet…..bt it ws nt at al intentional…..(hey u…..if reading this…..u knw it kada???)))))…...bt finally 2day ,I am happy for 2 of my friends…..i realy wish it works out !!!…….n also 2nd yr ws most memorable for it ws during this yr tht I actually got close to sme of my closest n sweetest ppl( ‘The’ Tgang……well no tag line as of nw…..nothin cn actually suit the eccentricies of us all…..bt dnt wory,v ll soon frame one!!)….
Well!!! The 3rd n 4th yrs of my engg life…..with such sweet friends all the days were equally spl…..everyday ws funn!!!!!......real funn!!!.......actually they deserve many many long long blogs so more to come abt all the fun n abt them n also abt their bfs (heheh) in next blogs……!!!
Mmmmm so 2day have to buy a slam book……buying books with pocket money anyway hurts…..bt this book is hurting even more huh!!!!.........i ll really miss u all ppl re……feeling so nostalgic abt parting with canteen espl!!!.....the canteen, friends(bakery), himalaya bakery, taj bakery, the 35np Xerox shop near by, landscape garden, parking lot, LR, college, classroom, n last bt nt the least our library r smeplaces I cn never afford to forget in my life…..i really dnt knw hw ll I manage parting with soo many dear things all of a sudden!......huh!!! really hurts…..huh!! today is my seminar n I m writin blogs here…..shipra ll surely kill me for this…..ok ok so stopping here…….
N hey!!!......those of u who dint get the latest update of hw well I crackd my gre……ok so on ‘the’ day….i ws strangely nt at al tensed('smething wrong' i thought)…..after the awa section ws indeed a bit relaxed……bt then came the quant…..with as many as 5 guesses, I ws almost sure tht I ll hav to book my date again!!!.....bt never expected tht with all my bad mood after screwing up my quant I cud still score well in verbal…..n I really really attribute all this to my good luck (touchwood!!!)…..n so when I finally had a look at the score(after soo many prayers!!) I cud hardly believe my eyes…..it ws 1450 (right place 4 the yahoo smiley show
ing aaaall the 32 teeth)…..780 quant n 670 verbal……u ppl dnt knw hw many times I added 780 n 670 to make sure tht it ws indeed 1450…… nt quite happy with the quant score…..bt I knw tht it’s the result of purely n wholly n solely my overconfidence abt quant …..bt the worst part is I still dnt understand hw cud I not see the % of my score......it must hav been jus beside the score bt it still mystefies me tht hw cud I even come out with nt lookin at the %......it still seems so mysterious to me huh!!!!.......well sme mysteries do happen na……as I welcome the favourable mysteries , I ought to accept the otherwise also na……….. wtevr it is , at the end if the day wt matters is the result n I am more thn happy with my score…….n ya Thomson prometric is nt thaaaaaaaaaaat bogus as I thought it ws (hehehe)……
Well mm very happy….nw I cn chill out a bit!!.........n ya thnx to u all for prayin for me n for ur heartfelt wishes…..i owe u a lot ppl!!!!.....thankuuuu……uuummaaahhhhh........love u
nny na…..It feels like its just a few months ago tht v were all in the landscape garden having loads n loads of fun in our freshers week…..1st yr ws indeed memorable…..with aaal the reciting of bd’s……with all ragging( the so cald interaction between seniors n juniors hehe)…..with all the proposals ( the best part of all!!!!!.......aaaaahhhh feels gr8 tht soo many guys proposed me……so wt if it ws a part of ragging, heheh!!!!!)……with all the singin n dancing (though it ws nt funn tht time….it feels gud nw to think abt it all…..)…..n ya the aakruti2002….really unforgettable…….so much funn…..the narthana esp…may b coz v r a part of it…awesome experience
N then the 2nd yr……memorable in its own way…….well!!! few things cnt b mentioned here…..few bitter sorrows hauntin me for hurting someone very sweet…..bt it ws nt at al intentional…..(hey u…..if reading this…..u knw it kada???)))))…...bt finally 2day ,I am happy for 2 of my friends…..i realy wish it works out !!!…….n also 2nd yr ws most memorable for it ws during this yr tht I actually got close to sme of my closest n sweetest ppl( ‘The’ Tgang……well no tag line as of nw…..nothin cn actually suit the eccentricies of us all…..bt dnt wory,v ll soon frame one!!)….
Well!!! The 3rd n 4th yrs of my engg life…..with such sweet friends all the days were equally spl…..everyday ws funn!!!!!......real funn!!!.......actually they deserve many many long long blogs so more to come abt all the fun n abt them n also abt their bfs (heheh) in next blogs……!!!
Mmmmm so 2day have to buy a slam book……buying books with pocket money anyway hurts…..bt this book is hurting even more huh!!!!.........i ll really miss u all ppl re……feeling so nostalgic abt parting with canteen espl!!!.....the canteen, friends(bakery), himalaya bakery, taj bakery, the 35np Xerox shop near by, landscape garden, parking lot, LR, college, classroom, n last bt nt the least our library r smeplaces I cn never afford to forget in my life…..i really dnt knw hw ll I manage parting with soo many dear things all of a sudden!......huh!!! really hurts…..huh!! today is my seminar n I m writin blogs here…..shipra ll surely kill me for this…..ok ok so stopping here…….
N hey!!!......those of u who dint get the latest update of hw well I crackd my gre……ok so on ‘the’ day….i ws strangely nt at al tensed('smething wrong' i thought)…..after the awa section ws indeed a bit relaxed……bt then came the quant…..with as many as 5 guesses, I ws almost sure tht I ll hav to book my date again!!!.....bt never expected tht with all my bad mood after screwing up my quant I cud still score well in verbal…..n I really really attribute all this to my good luck (touchwood!!!)…..n so when I finally had a look at the score(after soo many prayers!!) I cud hardly believe my eyes…..it ws 1450 (right place 4 the yahoo smiley show
ing aaaall the 32 teeth)…..780 quant n 670 verbal……u ppl dnt knw hw many times I added 780 n 670 to make sure tht it ws indeed 1450…… nt quite happy with the quant score…..bt I knw tht it’s the result of purely n wholly n solely my overconfidence abt quant …..bt the worst part is I still dnt understand hw cud I not see the % of my score......it must hav been jus beside the score bt it still mystefies me tht hw cud I even come out with nt lookin at the %......it still seems so mysterious to me huh!!!!.......well sme mysteries do happen na……as I welcome the favourable mysteries , I ought to accept the otherwise also na……….. wtevr it is , at the end if the day wt matters is the result n I am more thn happy with my score…….n ya Thomson prometric is nt thaaaaaaaaaaat bogus as I thought it ws (hehehe)……Well mm very happy….nw I cn chill out a bit!!.........n ya thnx to u all for prayin for me n for ur heartfelt wishes…..i owe u a lot ppl!!!!.....thankuuuu……uuummaaahhhhh........love u
Sunday, April 23, 2006
24 HOURS!!!!....and the count down finally begins!!!!!
Tommorrow……..…25th april……….my date!!……….…nw ppl dnt get carried away…….…its actually my gre date!!!!
N guess wt….…..i m still cooooool……...guess y…….…thts bcoz of the new A/C in my room!!!!.....n ya thnx to J.L.Baird whose invention keeps me all the while engaged without giving me any free time to feel tensed.
Bt when I actually spared sme time to sit n start writng this blog I m actually trying to undersrtand myself better abt wt I actually feel b4 the exam ……..coz these feelings will b lost when I get to see my score n new feeling of happiness( hopefully) or may b sadness ll appear……
Ssssssso finally the looong wait has come to an end......….i had beeen postponing almost evrythig….....movies! after gre…........….novels! after gre…......…parties! after gre……project work! After gre…..…shopping! After gre…......…reading newspapers! After gre……..giving dresses for stiching! After gre…........….meeting childhood friends! After gre….....……...dieting! after gre( I cud never actually find the connection between dietin n gre though!!!!)….......…so literally evrythin after gre….....…n finally the “after gre” has come as distant as 1day……huh!!!!......so nw allll the pendin works hav to b attended to!!!!!.....
Like the feeling b4 evry exam 2day also hw much I wish I had sme more time ,hw much I feel given some more days I wud hav dne more justification to my prep…..but!!!! in a spl exam like GRE whre u cn just buy time( to write it again!!), u hav as much time as u wish.(huh!!!!)…… So I am trying hard not to get the thought of sme more time to prepare coz there r always the “thadasthu devathas” up there to say “thadasthu”for wtever u say/think and tht wud defntly account to my poor performance tomm. Though I never actually believed to the core in the existence of the soo called tadhasthu devastas bt stilllllll y take risk????
The expectations of family ,relatives and friends tend to bring sme pressure on my small cute little mind. All my relatives consider me a veryyyyy very tope person and they think I ll cross off 1500 easily…..huh!!! hw do I explain them aaaal the intricacies involved the test esp computer adaptive test!!!
At hme I blast everyone to remain silent when I m takin my model tests!!!......bt then during the actuall test ,the pindrop silence is the actualll culprit giving me the actual feeeeeeel of the real test and also the dracula named 'tension' accompanies the feeeel !!!!
At home I scored as much as 1400+ and even 1500+, bt then hw cn one simulate the experience at hme with the actualll test experience. The tension tht I m actually writing THE gre, THE actuall gre ””might”” act on my nerves n render my brain defunct( very particular abt not using “will” or “would” coz remember naa tadasthu devastas, so “might” is always safer!!!)
Bt then gre is after aaaal a test….a mere test……a tokkalo test…….nt the end of life right????
Well!!! This is nt the same old harika of schooldays who used to feel miserable for not topping the class. Life has taught me many things and i hav learn to b happy. wtever comes my way,I hav learn to accept it. N I really wont feel thaaaat bad for failures as well. After all “life” is the only thing worth dying for…..and evrythin literally evrythin stands small in front of the happiness in being alive in this beautiful world of ‘beautiful ppl’( hey u aaaal…...listening????)
I believe tht a failure in life implies tht u hav smethin really to cheer u up in life in store…..ok so lets c if gre is the cheering part of my past failures(cnt recall any though!!!) or it becomes a reason for my next best achievements ….lets c wt life has in store for me!!!!
Ok folks….so,i m goin to take success n failure equally tomm…..ofcourse I m confident enuf of crossing the mark-1400, bt still I dnt want to eliminate the chances of sheer bad luck playing its stupid game when I m actually struggling hard with the test……and so evn if I dnt cross the mark I knw tht its nt my fault n so y feel guilty abt it right???......
I ws very very happy with the results of almost allll the exams I attempted till date….lets c if the winning spree continues!!!!!
Huh!!!!! wt wud tht Thomson prometric( it is the company offering computer adaptive testing for gre,toefl etc) rate my performance…….tomm in fact I m goin to rate him!!!.....Is the test really fair enuf or jus bogus???….can the test results really evaluate ones intelligence successfully?????…..ook so for more updates on hw authentic the Thomson prometric testing is …..STAY TUNED……!!!!!
ALL THE BEST THOMSON PROMETRIC !!!!!
dated: April 24th , 09.00 hrs (IST)
N guess wt….…..i m still cooooool……...guess y…….…thts bcoz of the new A/C in my room!!!!.....n ya thnx to J.L.Baird whose invention keeps me all the while engaged without giving me any free time to feel tensed.
Bt when I actually spared sme time to sit n start writng this blog I m actually trying to undersrtand myself better abt wt I actually feel b4 the exam ……..coz these feelings will b lost when I get to see my score n new feeling of happiness( hopefully) or may b sadness ll appear……
Ssssssso finally the looong wait has come to an end......….i had beeen postponing almost evrythig….....movies! after gre…........….novels! after gre…......…parties! after gre……project work! After gre…..…shopping! After gre…......…reading newspapers! After gre……..giving dresses for stiching! After gre…........….meeting childhood friends! After gre….....……...dieting! after gre( I cud never actually find the connection between dietin n gre though!!!!)….......…so literally evrythin after gre….....…n finally the “after gre” has come as distant as 1day……huh!!!!......so nw allll the pendin works hav to b attended to!!!!!.....
Like the feeling b4 evry exam 2day also hw much I wish I had sme more time ,hw much I feel given some more days I wud hav dne more justification to my prep…..but!!!! in a spl exam like GRE whre u cn just buy time( to write it again!!), u hav as much time as u wish.(huh!!!!)…… So I am trying hard not to get the thought of sme more time to prepare coz there r always the “thadasthu devathas” up there to say “thadasthu”for wtever u say/think and tht wud defntly account to my poor performance tomm. Though I never actually believed to the core in the existence of the soo called tadhasthu devastas bt stilllllll y take risk????
The expectations of family ,relatives and friends tend to bring sme pressure on my small cute little mind. All my relatives consider me a veryyyyy very tope person and they think I ll cross off 1500 easily…..huh!!! hw do I explain them aaaal the intricacies involved the test esp computer adaptive test!!!
At hme I blast everyone to remain silent when I m takin my model tests!!!......bt then during the actuall test ,the pindrop silence is the actualll culprit giving me the actual feeeeeeel of the real test and also the dracula named 'tension' accompanies the feeeel !!!!
At home I scored as much as 1400+ and even 1500+, bt then hw cn one simulate the experience at hme with the actualll test experience. The tension tht I m actually writing THE gre, THE actuall gre ””might”” act on my nerves n render my brain defunct( very particular abt not using “will” or “would” coz remember naa tadasthu devastas, so “might” is always safer!!!)
Bt then gre is after aaaal a test….a mere test……a tokkalo test…….nt the end of life right????
Well!!! This is nt the same old harika of schooldays who used to feel miserable for not topping the class. Life has taught me many things and i hav learn to b happy. wtever comes my way,I hav learn to accept it. N I really wont feel thaaaat bad for failures as well. After all “life” is the only thing worth dying for…..and evrythin literally evrythin stands small in front of the happiness in being alive in this beautiful world of ‘beautiful ppl’( hey u aaaal…...listening????)
I believe tht a failure in life implies tht u hav smethin really to cheer u up in life in store…..ok so lets c if gre is the cheering part of my past failures(cnt recall any though!!!) or it becomes a reason for my next best achievements ….lets c wt life has in store for me!!!!
Ok folks….so,i m goin to take success n failure equally tomm…..ofcourse I m confident enuf of crossing the mark-1400, bt still I dnt want to eliminate the chances of sheer bad luck playing its stupid game when I m actually struggling hard with the test……and so evn if I dnt cross the mark I knw tht its nt my fault n so y feel guilty abt it right???......
I ws very very happy with the results of almost allll the exams I attempted till date….lets c if the winning spree continues!!!!!
Huh!!!!! wt wud tht Thomson prometric( it is the company offering computer adaptive testing for gre,toefl etc) rate my performance…….tomm in fact I m goin to rate him!!!.....Is the test really fair enuf or jus bogus???….can the test results really evaluate ones intelligence successfully?????…..ook so for more updates on hw authentic the Thomson prometric testing is …..STAY TUNED……!!!!!
ALL THE BEST THOMSON PROMETRIC !!!!!
dated: April 24th , 09.00 hrs (IST)
Friday, March 31, 2006
my chweeeeeeet love!!!!!!
On the most memorable day of my life…..this guy stepped in my life…..aaaaahhhhhh!!!! love at first sight!!!!!!.....tht handsome face still dwells in my eyes…..any gal wud fall for him (hey u reading na??....nt flaterrin ra….i really mean it okk!!!)….bt hey nt aal girls r lucky enuf to get close it him right??....sssssssssssoo LUCKY ME!!!!!!
Since the day we met 1st…...every day has been logged into the “most cherished things” in my memory…..n I cnt wantedly delete sme of them also coz each n every one is faaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaar beyond being jussssssst memorable!!!........i jus love evry second in his company(really really mean it!!!..)……ofcourse like in any relation, creeped inn many misunderstandings and petty petty fights….bt then we wudnt let them surpass our love, isnt it??.....bt those small quarrels n stuff r sure to remain as sweet memories for the rest of our lifes…..there r soo many things I cn actually pen down here bt then tht wud b cald a novel then instead of a blog!!!!......bt I really owe him a lot for all the care aaal the sweetness and for being with me wenever I ws down n out and for givin me confidence n for makin me feel tht I m the best person of the universe!!.......aal the gosspis for hours!!!....aal the looong drives!!!....aaal the movies n our commentary in between!!!!....aall the dinners!!!......i really really enjoyed…..(ofcourse I wud obviously njoy the dinner….bt ppl!!!....here I m talking abt his company okk)…..n hey the best part....his kiss on my cheek is always enuf to bring me smiles n cheers all the time!!!)....hw much he cares for me .....hhw much he loves me...n yes i do reciprocate the same!!!......huh!!! ppl did u notice????!!.....tht i m actually tryin hard to control my tears!!!( he wud definetly hav guessd!!!).....huh!!! gettin too senti!!.....
Bt nw…..with many many girls coming into his life…..i m scared( dnt knw the reason though!!!!)….i m feelin jealous!!!.....n ya y wudnt any gal want the sweetest guy on the earth!!!...actually universe!!!....no no actually the entire solar systems n aal the galaxies and aaalll the huh!!!! I dnt knw bt actually the sweetest guy ever!!!!........... bt I still knw tht I occupy a very very spl place in his heart (huh!!!!.....soundin very clichéd I knw!!!....bt I dnt care……coz those words cant b rephrased!!!......those r the most apt words my brain cn strike at this moment)…..i really hav a spl place in his heart n no other gal cn replace me….n wen I say it!!! Yes there is no beatin to it okk!!!
Soo with all the happiness in this world till nw…I m scared nw tht I ll hav to part with him!!!......coz god cnt see happiness for too long…..n huh!!!! I cnt stay with hi
m for the rest of my life……n hey hw cn I expect it also!!!.....after aal I ll hav to get married na!!......bt this sweetest guy…..who is none other than yashu (yashwanth!!!!….my chweet little brother)….is really worth aaalll my life n love…..(huh!!! I had never been so senti)…..c with aaaal my gre prep I cnt strike a better adjective than “sweet” to best describe him……coz he is sweet…..really very very sweet!!!!
For those of u who dnt knw him(the most unlucky souls I wud call!!!)….he is doin his 2nd yr ece in cbit...... cn always contact him on 'yashwanth 9885227744'....…heheh soundin like shivamani 9848-------(wtever!!)…....bt then he is not ‘like’ somebody else…..he is ‘yash’….thts itt…..his attitude is the best part of him!!!....bt then yesterday for sme reasons he was very dull…..n I found THE attitude in him missing for a while!!!!......n so I had to get up this early 2day (huh!!! 8.30 am!!!) to write abt him!!!!(i hope this attempt wud make him smile n make my day!!!)........orey sweetheart….nothing really cn part u fm ur attitude ra…..thts part of ‘yashwanth’…..n thse tokkalo petty things wnt matter to ‘THE’ yashwanth isn’t ???!!!!!
Since the day we met 1st…...every day has been logged into the “most cherished things” in my memory…..n I cnt wantedly delete sme of them also coz each n every one is faaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaar beyond being jussssssst memorable!!!........i jus love evry second in his company(really really mean it!!!..)……ofcourse like in any relation, creeped inn many misunderstandings and petty petty fights….bt then we wudnt let them surpass our love, isnt it??.....bt those small quarrels n stuff r sure to remain as sweet memories for the rest of our lifes…..there r soo many things I cn actually pen down here bt then tht wud b cald a novel then instead of a blog!!!!......bt I really owe him a lot for all the care aaal the sweetness and for being with me wenever I ws down n out and for givin me confidence n for makin me feel tht I m the best person of the universe!!.......aal the gosspis for hours!!!....aal the looong drives!!!....aaal the movies n our commentary in between!!!!....aall the dinners!!!......i really really enjoyed…..(ofcourse I wud obviously njoy the dinner….bt ppl!!!....here I m talking abt his company okk)…..n hey the best part....his kiss on my cheek is always enuf to bring me smiles n cheers all the time!!!)....hw much he cares for me .....hhw much he loves me...n yes i do reciprocate the same!!!......huh!!! ppl did u notice????!!.....tht i m actually tryin hard to control my tears!!!( he wud definetly hav guessd!!!).....huh!!! gettin too senti!!.....Bt nw…..with many many girls coming into his life…..i m scared( dnt knw the reason though!!!!)….i m feelin jealous!!!.....n ya y wudnt any gal want the sweetest guy on the earth!!!...actually universe!!!....no no actually the entire solar systems n aal the galaxies and aaalll the huh!!!! I dnt knw bt actually the sweetest guy ever!!!!........... bt I still knw tht I occupy a very very spl place in his heart (huh!!!!.....soundin very clichéd I knw!!!....bt I dnt care……coz those words cant b rephrased!!!......those r the most apt words my brain cn strike at this moment)…..i really hav a spl place in his heart n no other gal cn replace me….n wen I say it!!! Yes there is no beatin to it okk!!!
Soo with all the happiness in this world till nw…I m scared nw tht I ll hav to part with him!!!......coz god cnt see happiness for too long…..n huh!!!! I cnt stay with hi
m for the rest of my life……n hey hw cn I expect it also!!!.....after aal I ll hav to get married na!!......bt this sweetest guy…..who is none other than yashu (yashwanth!!!!….my chweet little brother)….is really worth aaalll my life n love…..(huh!!! I had never been so senti)…..c with aaaal my gre prep I cnt strike a better adjective than “sweet” to best describe him……coz he is sweet…..really very very sweet!!!!For those of u who dnt knw him(the most unlucky souls I wud call!!!)….he is doin his 2nd yr ece in cbit...... cn always contact him on 'yashwanth 9885227744'....…heheh soundin like shivamani 9848-------(wtever!!)…....bt then he is not ‘like’ somebody else…..he is ‘yash’….thts itt…..his attitude is the best part of him!!!....bt then yesterday for sme reasons he was very dull…..n I found THE attitude in him missing for a while!!!!......n so I had to get up this early 2day (huh!!! 8.30 am!!!) to write abt him!!!!(i hope this attempt wud make him smile n make my day!!!)........orey sweetheart….nothing really cn part u fm ur attitude ra…..thts part of ‘yashwanth’…..n thse tokkalo petty things wnt matter to ‘THE’ yashwanth isn’t ???!!!!!
Monday, March 20, 2006
1month b4 GRE!!!!
I dnt hav the foggiest idea of hw u ppl felt 1month prior to gre…...bt I cn bet my life tht it wsnt a pleasant one……coz nw u knw…..u knw tht u hav to start!!!!......all thes days I had been delayin…....wasnt quite serious abt “anything “(??? Nt really) bt nt abt gre okk…...bt then! its hightime nw!!!!
Many ppl hold the misconception tht gre is a cake walk..….n I m seriously khandhistunaning (objecting) it….....i agree tht it is all abt sme vocab ,sme knowledge of quant n thts itt nothing else!!!....bt still I feel it sucks!!!!!!......dnt knw y!!!........may b the fact tht its CAT(computer adaptive ) (cat is a small thin in its description…....it may prove more fatal thn a lion!!!;-)) makes it more deadly for me…....hw much ever u stdy…....hw much ever u byheart the words(which u may bet ur life tht u wnt use anywhere)….bt still there is a possibility tht ur score wud get screwd up!!!....thts coz ur score ll b assesd more on the basis of the 1st few Qs (hw unfair????!!!!!)…..n once u havnt done well in ur 1st 10 Qs then u knw tht u ll hav to walk the so cald cake walk again(huh!!!????....isnt it???)…. ..N the fact tht the cost of takin the exam is nt less tht 6,500 bucks( huh!!!) n I ll obviously feel guilty for spending tht again coz of my incompetence( rather say…luck!!!)…....so I want to give it my BEST the very 1st time…....bt wen the divine powers( I mean luck!!) r acting then evrythin isn’t in ur hands…...n to overcome this frustration at times I prefer to feel tht evrythin is predefined…...u cnt change it anyway…...bt then this tokkalo philosophy hinders my prep(coz if I cnt change anything anyway then y stdy?????))))…..
few words abt different sections of gre:
Verbal: As I previously told u, u sit b4 the system with all the barrons, bigbuk,vissu or promac or geevas or wtever knowledge in ur mind,u may still get a Q u havnt heard of….its quite much possible….with very high probability as well….arey vocabulary is a vaaaast ocean yaar…….n the worst part is evryword havin more thn one meanin!!!!....n u got to byheart evry meanin…..coz u never knw ur luck isn’t it?....huh!!! y am I divertin to criticisin the eng lang itself nw(????)…..ok ok so no hard feelin on the lang……
Quant: well the easiest part 4 all of us!!!.....since my school days I loved mathematics……n the sir too(heheh….jus kiddin okkk)….. bt thos of u who r jus out of the CAT prep wud definetly give a different version right??....coz CAT quant is really tough….bt gre quant is chillar….mast light!!!;-))))……bt then ther r always my silly sillier sillest mistakes to haunt me….
Analytical writing: well!!!no comments on this section…coz no idea as of nw……n no intentions of startin prep for this section soo soon as well!!
Actually want to write a looooot…bt u c….i hav to start!!!.....so lemme start right away….
Many ppl hold the misconception tht gre is a cake walk..….n I m seriously khandhistunaning (objecting) it….....i agree tht it is all abt sme vocab ,sme knowledge of quant n thts itt nothing else!!!....bt still I feel it sucks!!!!!!......dnt knw y!!!........may b the fact tht its CAT(computer adaptive ) (cat is a small thin in its description…....it may prove more fatal thn a lion!!!;-)) makes it more deadly for me…....hw much ever u stdy…....hw much ever u byheart the words(which u may bet ur life tht u wnt use anywhere)….bt still there is a possibility tht ur score wud get screwd up!!!....thts coz ur score ll b assesd more on the basis of the 1st few Qs (hw unfair????!!!!!)…..n once u havnt done well in ur 1st 10 Qs then u knw tht u ll hav to walk the so cald cake walk again(huh!!!????....isnt it???)…. ..N the fact tht the cost of takin the exam is nt less tht 6,500 bucks( huh!!!) n I ll obviously feel guilty for spending tht again coz of my incompetence( rather say…luck!!!)…....so I want to give it my BEST the very 1st time…....bt wen the divine powers( I mean luck!!) r acting then evrythin isn’t in ur hands…...n to overcome this frustration at times I prefer to feel tht evrythin is predefined…...u cnt change it anyway…...bt then this tokkalo philosophy hinders my prep(coz if I cnt change anything anyway then y stdy?????))))…..
few words abt different sections of gre:
Verbal: As I previously told u, u sit b4 the system with all the barrons, bigbuk,vissu or promac or geevas or wtever knowledge in ur mind,u may still get a Q u havnt heard of….its quite much possible….with very high probability as well….arey vocabulary is a vaaaast ocean yaar…….n the worst part is evryword havin more thn one meanin!!!!....n u got to byheart evry meanin…..coz u never knw ur luck isn’t it?....huh!!! y am I divertin to criticisin the eng lang itself nw(????)…..ok ok so no hard feelin on the lang……
Quant: well the easiest part 4 all of us!!!.....since my school days I loved mathematics……n the sir too(heheh….jus kiddin okkk)….. bt thos of u who r jus out of the CAT prep wud definetly give a different version right??....coz CAT quant is really tough….bt gre quant is chillar….mast light!!!;-))))……bt then ther r always my silly sillier sillest mistakes to haunt me….
Analytical writing: well!!!no comments on this section…coz no idea as of nw……n no intentions of startin prep for this section soo soon as well!!
Actually want to write a looooot…bt u c….i hav to start!!!.....so lemme start right away….
Saturday, March 18, 2006
FINALYYYYYY!!!!......MY FIRST ONE!!!!!!!
FINALYYYYYYY !!!!!!.......My FIRST ONE!!!!!!
Hiiiiii friends :-))))))….so here I m with my first ever blog !!!!!!!….i always loved reading blogs bt was never actually interested in writing one!!!......bt wen u r preparing for gre….EVERYTHING ELSE in this world seems interesting [:p]….ok ok so coming to the point…..sme lines abt me for those of u who dnt knw me soo well…..actually none of u knw me really well!!!....its quite difficult to understand a genious u c…heheh…..well a true piscean dreams a lot!!!....n I am no exception to tht…..soooo many aims sooo many thots soo many dreams…..bt being frank no perfect effort to let them come true heheh….
Aaaahhhh missing yahoo smileys soo badly!! :-(((((((.....jus typed few lines n feelin paralysed without them….huh!!! getting tooo addicted to the IM thing I guess!!!! Ok ok so here is finally a platform wherein I can share my experiences with u( heheh sounds too formal naa )….bt there r manyyyyy experiences which I cnt put them down here….n heyy!!!! those of u who dint get any hint of wt those experiences are….dnt try too hard to burn out ur grey cells!!!!!…..if u dint get it at the 1st try, u wnt get it anyway…..n so there is always the yahoo messenger between us right????.......
Ok so here I stand on the verge of completing my engg life (hopefully!!!!!)…..n one fine day in future, down the memory lane, there a lot many experiences I treasure to cherish for the rest of my life…..thes 4 yrs hav brought about many changes tht I cnt fathom evn nw……bt then most of them were welcome…..n hey one of them worth mentioning……one fine typical moody day!!!.....i ws very much down n out for no particular reason…..may b the thought of our to b declared 4-1 results ws the reason….n I suddenly find out tht I actually TOPPED my class…..n hey ppl!!!!!! Me topping my class is nt at al funny okkk…….its HILARIOUS!!!!!! Heheh……it ws one of my fantasies cme true……
Really happy to get placed on the DSP wing of wipro….bt then I want to go 4 MS for greener pastures……so gonna crack gre on april 25th…..( n so cn I expect sme calls on 24th april????)))…..n hey gre really sucks!!!!......byheartin jus for the heck of it is so painful……so lets c hw well I fare…..Aaaaahhhhhhhhh hw easily I answerd the 5 yrs down the line question in the wipro interview….bt the irony is tht I dnt evn knw where I ll stand 6months down the line…..wipro or MS or may b I ll settle as a housewife heheh who knws????!!!!!!..........
ok guyz tht ws toooo much for the very 1st blog…..its better I sign out nw…..n b4 I leav, my favourite punch line without which my friends wud consider this blog smewt incomplete…..”hey ppl I am dietin veryyyyyyyyyyyyy seriously from tomm okkk” heheh……
( n hey do I need to ask u ppl to comment on my blog???…..wnt u do it anyway????)
ok then adios amigos
Hiiiiii friends :-))))))….so here I m with my first ever blog !!!!!!!….i always loved reading blogs bt was never actually interested in writing one!!!......bt wen u r preparing for gre….EVERYTHING ELSE in this world seems interesting [:p]….ok ok so coming to the point…..sme lines abt me for those of u who dnt knw me soo well…..actually none of u knw me really well!!!....its quite difficult to understand a genious u c…heheh…..well a true piscean dreams a lot!!!....n I am no exception to tht…..soooo many aims sooo many thots soo many dreams…..bt being frank no perfect effort to let them come true heheh….
Aaaahhhh missing yahoo smileys soo badly!! :-(((((((.....jus typed few lines n feelin paralysed without them….huh!!! getting tooo addicted to the IM thing I guess!!!! Ok ok so here is finally a platform wherein I can share my experiences with u( heheh sounds too formal naa )….bt there r manyyyyy experiences which I cnt put them down here….n heyy!!!! those of u who dint get any hint of wt those experiences are….dnt try too hard to burn out ur grey cells!!!!!…..if u dint get it at the 1st try, u wnt get it anyway…..n so there is always the yahoo messenger between us right????.......
Ok so here I stand on the verge of completing my engg life (hopefully!!!!!)…..n one fine day in future, down the memory lane, there a lot many experiences I treasure to cherish for the rest of my life…..thes 4 yrs hav brought about many changes tht I cnt fathom evn nw……bt then most of them were welcome…..n hey one of them worth mentioning……one fine typical moody day!!!.....i ws very much down n out for no particular reason…..may b the thought of our to b declared 4-1 results ws the reason….n I suddenly find out tht I actually TOPPED my class…..n hey ppl!!!!!! Me topping my class is nt at al funny okkk…….its HILARIOUS!!!!!! Heheh……it ws one of my fantasies cme true……
Really happy to get placed on the DSP wing of wipro….bt then I want to go 4 MS for greener pastures……so gonna crack gre on april 25th…..( n so cn I expect sme calls on 24th april????)))…..n hey gre really sucks!!!!......byheartin jus for the heck of it is so painful……so lets c hw well I fare…..Aaaaahhhhhhhhh hw easily I answerd the 5 yrs down the line question in the wipro interview….bt the irony is tht I dnt evn knw where I ll stand 6months down the line…..wipro or MS or may b I ll settle as a housewife heheh who knws????!!!!!!..........
ok guyz tht ws toooo much for the very 1st blog…..its better I sign out nw…..n b4 I leav, my favourite punch line without which my friends wud consider this blog smewt incomplete…..”hey ppl I am dietin veryyyyyyyyyyyyy seriously from tomm okkk” heheh……
( n hey do I need to ask u ppl to comment on my blog???…..wnt u do it anyway????)
ok then adios amigos
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