A blog about my Rocky...

PS (PreScript): The more jobless i get, the more crap appears in my writings....so read at your own risk :P
((Disclaimer ante common ga untadani PreScript ani use chesa :D :P........Creativity just rocks ya :P :P))

So I am going to write about Rocky in this blog....how can i describe him...he has been my best friend since i came to cincinnati....i jus cant imagine life without him.....cal it addiction/love/attraction or anything....but i simply love him and i am not afraid to confess that i really cant live without him....its hard to imagine life without rocky.....
Rocky is none other than my laptop :))......
My laptop's name is Rocky....most of you might not be aware of this....actually none of you are aware of this....becoz i named it jus a few minutes back :P :P.....
Well! There are reasons why i named my darling laptop as Rocky....
The reasons for naming my darling laptop as Rocky are : (Reminds me of my school days where i used to repeat the question again in the answer jus to fill the pages :P)
1. It is as hard as Rock :P
2. It plays Rock very well :P :P (I mean the sound system is better than other laptops and definetely louder and better than HP :P)
3. Its processor is made from Silicon Rock :P :P (After all i am a VLSI engineer :P)
4. And the main and imp reason is that " It simple ROCKSSSSSSS " yaaar :D :P

My friend named her laptop as "puppy"....and she calls it lappy puppyy.....sooo cutee kada :)))......i soo much liked it that i also wanted to copy it.......i mean lappyy puppyyy ante entha cuteeeee undi.....but then, my laptop is unique.....NA dell vostro 1400 ante entha unique....how can it share its name with anyone !! :P......Dell people also realized the uniqueness of my laptop and stopped manufacturing more of vostro 1400s :D ( sme ppl say its bcoz the model is a flop one :P....but then its based on perception u c :P )

Its been 16 months since it is with me......it has been with me during thick and thin ( That is an English proverb :P....dnt ask me when were you thin?? ani :P :P ).....it has seen me laugh...it has seen my tears....it knws hw much i missed home....it knows how much i worked hard for my studies :P (It KNOWS....ohh noooo :P ).....it knws what songs i like....it knows what pics i see often.....it knows everthing about me.....n it has been with me all the time....aahhhh!! Its really my best friend :)).....Those of you in India may not understand what a laptop means to a MS student......you may nt understand the intensity of this blog....but It really is difficult to imagine grad life in US without it.....

Everything was fine untill dec 08....then started troubleee.....when my laptop was entered by "Sinowal Trojan".....everything went haywire.....I trusted McAfee but it failed to protect my Rocky....even the windows explorer failed to work.....i couldnt do anything on it....it was then when i realized what it means to me.......the only option was to format and install everything again.....i installed XP.....and then installed all the required drivers, and softwares (msoffice, adobe,jdk, eclipse, picasa3,perl, mason, devcpp, java3d etc etc )(for my thesis ree :P)......but then it became damnnn slow......i mean one click used to take jus several hundreds of seconds......n then i realized that my rocky was supposed have only 1 soul :P (operating system)......it was made for Vista and i am not supposed to change it.....after realizing the hard truth, i agaiin formatted and reinstalled vista and again reinstalled the drivers and again reinstalled all the softwares .....abbabaaba chala chirrakku vachindi antha process ayye sariki.......n in the process i dnt knw where i went wrong but then started the startup problem......n no solution available for startup repair......i mean hw can i go wrong in installing an operating system from a given cd.....i dnt think i am soo dumb that i cant even do sucha simple thing properly :P.....anyway so wtever the reason was, i had to do the series of installations AGAIN :((.......n NOWW finally its all working fine :D....(n this incident gave me motivation to register for Operating Systems Course :P)....

Anyway thru this blog i jus wanted to let my laptop knw hw much i love it ani :D.....except tht last night the key "Enter" stopped working :P :P.....

Actually asalu ee blog tho wt did i want to convey ani meeku doubt ravachu :P :P.......ABBBBBAAAAA CHAAAA , edo okati convey chesthe tappa chadavara enti???? :P :P....

Ayinaa kanii i want to convey a msg to my readers......my readers anta :P :P.....edo pedda novelist laga :P.....ok so the message is tht there are negatives in everyone/everything we love, so we shud accept them as they are and still love them the same :)......

Blog ki message ki connection ae ledu anukunte mee kharma :P...

My musings right now....

30min more for todays job shift to get over…..n I m in no mood to do anything…….
Staying invisible on gtalk isn’t interesting anyday……..orkut had become boring long back….
So here I am writing down whatall is running in my mind right now…….
Giving a proper order to thoughts is an ordeal…..n I aint an exception to it…but still I ll try…

1. Thesis…….well I had already written about abt my thesis woes and I always keep cribbing about how volatile my thesis topic is these days……I hope I ll soon get settled with a topic and thennn start my work…..

2. The recession…….they say it’s the worst recession since past many decades…..wahh what a timing!!……I m close to graduation ( not soo close also :P) and recession hits the job market…..as much as top companies of my field (VLSI) like Intel and Qualcomm themselves are on complete hiring freeze....i seriously hope and pray and wish that things should recover soon….
It hurts to know soo many ppl lost jobs……hw much miserable it would bewhen you are handed a pink slip without even a prior notice of 1 day : (((……it would have been real difficult to work with no job security……for once I am glad I am still in school…..
I am trying to understand this recession a lot….the sources, the pros and cons……I m very bad at economics and may b thts why I can never understand all this stuff…..but I still wonder if USA itself is in sucha bad stage, where exactly has all the money gone??......dnt start explaining that creation of virtual money concept, I already heard it but I never really exactly actually understood it :P :D…..

3. March is fast approaching….and so is my bday…..bdays have always been funn…..but not anymore……another birthday means u r another year older……n now, another year closer to marriage :P…..another year closer lo more responsibilities L(……
Life has changed a lot…..since many years….. Few years ago, only 1 thought ruled my mind……tht I shud study……n top the class…..but that was my choice….it was not a compulsion…..
But now….its a life full of responsibility…..full of self-evaluation…….Its my life now, n I am given the right to mould it as whatever I want it to be….i am completely independent now….
I always craved for being independent….until I realized how difficult it is to be….....it needs lot of guts to blame urself when sme decision of yours goes wrong……you have to work hard to stand on your own feet……u hav no choice now…….you cant escape your selfconsciousness…….:(((…
Anyway I dnt want to confuse you and confuse myself with all this psycological+mythological+philosophical stuff :P :P….

4. Becoming fat :P…..:D…well this had to be a part of my thoughts all the time…so it couldn’t escape this list :P….

5. Missing home…..well it aint fair that it came so down in the list……but thats the main thing I do all the time L(…..i really am……esp after sucha long trip to india……esp after sucha long trip full of family love, homely stay, moms food, nothing to do, lazy mornings, late nights, fun outings, friends meets, relatives affection, telugu movies in theatres, long drives on activa, well this list demands a spl blog altogether…….but esp when you gotto spend 3 months at home with no tensions in your mind, I swear those were the best days in my life…..i really cherish them to the core…..

6. Last but not the least….marraige tension :P…..i still cant believe that I ought to get married in a couple of years…..i mean, I still feel like a teenager :P :P……..how can I get married soo soon :P….

The list is not yet complete but my job shift is complete :P ……so I gotto leave…..thats it for now…c ya…

A forwarded story about Friendship...

Horror gripped the heart of a World War-I soldier, as he saw his lifelong friend fall in battle. The soldier asked his Lieutenant if he could go out to bring his fallen comrade back."You can go," said the Lieutenant, "but don't think it will be worth it .Your friend is probably dead and you may throw your life away."The Lieutenant's words didn't matter, and the soldier went anyway.Miraculously, he managed to reach his friend, hoisted him onto his shoulder and brought him back to their company's trench.The officer checked the wounded soldier, then looked kindly at his friend." I told you it wouldn't be worth it," he said. "Your friend is dead and you are mortally wounded.""It was worth it, Sir," said the soldier."What do you mean by worth it?" responded the Lieutenant."Your friend isdead.""Yes Sir," the soldier answered, "but it was worth it because when I got to him, he was still alive and Ihad the satisfaction of hearing him say.........................
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" Man...I knew you would come ! "

Kwab ho tho muzhko na jaga…

Staying home was never so enjoyable.... Cherishing every moment I spend here, every moment getting registered as a memory forever, every small move moving me so much…..all this for not being here for a period of around 10 months….really missed all this love….got to knw the value of ppl, places and feelings…..

Anyway this blog was not intended to express my feelings of being home after soo long( which seemed like an eon )…wil write abt it soon…..this is smething about the most happening thing of my life these days :)))))…..

It was on 21^st that I landed here….n I suddenly became the busiest person of the universe…hard to believe but I cudnt take out time to even return calls/ make cals to most of my friends….yashu had recently got a nasal and tonsillitis surgery done and he was not in his usual FORM I would say…..n I was seriously missing my bro even though I was sitting right beside him :(((….he was not supposed to speak for a week and he suffered sucha bad pain during swallowing anything that he hardly ate anything :(((…purely surviving on liquid diet, he lost almost 8 kgs ( Giving me a brilliant idea to adopt for myself :P)…..

I had only a month n a half to spend with him……having many options, he decided to join Carniegie Mellon University, Adelaide……the classes will begin in August and so he had to start smewhr arnd aug10th……n he being so sick was the only sad part of my India trip….

A sense of pride flows in me when I tell everyone that my bro got admitted into soo many Bschools..... He got cals from IIM Indore and IIM Kozicode, was waitlisted in IIM Indore, got admitted to MDI gurgaon, NITIE, all IITs....He even had job offers from CapGemini and Dell... But to him, the most appealing was admission into MSIT program of Carnegie Mellon University, Adelaide..... CMU stands worlds no.1 for this program which is a blend of IT and Management. ...I was not very excited about it, may b coz its in Australia and may b coz it demanded a total cost of arnd 20L inspite of getting 50% tuition waiver.....MBA abroad is indeed costly I thought..... But since yashu seems very exicted about it, I dint intend to stop him..... But the fact that it was an intensive 1 yr course seemed to b bothering me a lot..... The courses appeared very demanding, which required sme knowhow of java and other IT stuff and that many other students joining with him were already experienced of arnd 3-5 yrs.....Yashu had no much programming experience before and suddenly away from home,have to cook for himself, I was worried if he will be able to manage all these or not..... And with the recent operation, I became very worried about his health.

It was the night of june 26^th, in a general family discussion we started talking abt yashus classes and courses..... I put forth my point of view and surprisingly everyone seemed to be convinced and thus the decision of goin to CMU was at stake..... Even yashu was nt sure if he had opted for the correct choices among many gud ones..... But to him any other option was nt appealing enuf as worlds no. 1 university..... But at the same time spending so much was not appealing either..... So then he started considering other options..... He was reluctant to join any other Bschool coz he set a standard of IIM or higher in his mind and so all the BSchools went out of picture.... Then we considered MS in Univ of Florida but he dint seem interested in MS..... Finally the choice of joining Dell ws the only final resort..... The pay pack of 4.5L with posting location Hyderabad was more than enough to decide on it..... But in my mind I knew yashu was nt at al happy with the decision n I dint knw what to do..... I was feeling soo damn restless thinking about what could be the best choice among the ones v had. It was June 27^th afternoon ..... It was when I slept, this happened.

Our landline started ringing…..

Mom picked up the cal….

Someone was asking about yashu…..

As mumy was used to getting cals from Capgemini and Dell about when is he goin to join the company n all, she knew hw to deal with these cals….she informed that he had undergone an operation n so cant speak….she asked whts the matter…

He said….he ws fm the admission office of IIM Indore…..n tht yashu was offered admission…..n was asked to report and join on 2^nd July…..

When I woke up , I was told abt this news…..n I could hardly believe it……

I had never heard/seen/experienced prayers being answered soo instantaneously…..

The lyrics from a song never seems to apt “Zindagi ek pal mein sari, Yoon palat gayi hamari, Zhoot hai tho muzhko na bata….”

Was never this happy in my life….

I knw what getting into an IIM is like……I knw how many ppl dream of this every year…..i knw what all it takes to sustain the same level of confidence thru all the stages starting from Cat Preperation to getting the admission letter…..

In the beginning I cud hardly believe that yashu is actually goin to b a student of IIM……as this fact is slowly getting into my head, so is the pride slowly getting into me for being his sister……I would not be this happy even if I had got this admission…..i wouldn’t have got it anyway( hehe all of u knw this anyway :)))) )…

But I still cant believe that I had been living all these 20yrs with an IIM deserving candidate :P and the most funny part is that I always wondered how an IIM student looked like :P :P…..i really don’t knw hw much hard work he had put in to reach this stage coz I was busy doing my coursework in Cincinnati when all this was happening…..n yashu was busy here trying to prove that he can do well even without his sis :P…..

I m nt sure hw great getting into an IIM really is, but to me it’s the greatest thing and most happiest thing that can happen to an MBA aspiring student…..to me it was like a distant dream to even think that yashu ll get into IIM as a fresher……may b its coz of the number of ppl attempting CAT every yr, or may b coz of the number of attempts many ppl give to be successful, or may b coz so many less seats are available for OC boys category, or may b coz this is the 1^st yr he is attempting CAT or may b coz he is not so bookwormish(hardworking :P….jus tht I dint want to say directly tht he isn’t hardworking :P) as I thot IIM admission demanded or may b coz he never read a newspaper as far as I remember (May b he read after I slept :P)……

But finally he proved that all it needs is brains and a bit of luck…..and everything will be in place….(hehe vachaka enni ayina cheptaru ani anukuntunnara :P)….but I m sure everyone who knws yashu will definetly agree that he deserved to be whr he is now…..

Life in IIM will surely bring many changes in him….for the better hopefully….n hopefully no changes in his wavelength for which both of us brag a lot about our matching :))….anyway I m feeling soooo damn veryyy tooooo much extremely immensely proud ( n many more adjectives left for imagination ) for this day :)))….

I finally thank god for giving me an IIM tammudu….hehe guess u all understud hw happy and proud I am about all this…..n most importantly coz not everybody manages to get a seat in IIM at the age of 20!! ( Can u believe it!!)…IIM Indore is the youngest IIM of all it seems….n now I am a proud sister of the youngest student of the youngest IIM :)

To yashu I can only say…

This is just the beginning raa….:))))

Miles to go before u sleep , miles to go before u sleep

( Hours to go before I get up , hours to go before I get up ante type veedu :P)

Ummahhhhhhhhhhh ra bujji konda…

Congratsssss raaa sweetuuuuu…..Luv u beyy…..

Happy Birthday Dearest Ramya....

Osey darling....many many happy returns of the day ra.....


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Funny Matrimony profiles..

These are actual ads on a matrimony site...Got these in a forwarded mail.....too funnyyy.....

Grammar and spell errors have no place in a profile description as everything is straight from theheart!

Disclaimer : I am not responsible if you forget your basic grammar after reading this.....

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- Hello To Viewers My Name is Shekhar , I am single i don't have female,If anyone want to Marie to me u can visit to my home. I am not a good education but i working all field in bangalroe.. if u like me u welcome to my heart...when ever u want to meet pls visit my resident or send u letter.. Thanks yours Regards Shekhar ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

i want very simple girl. from brahmin educated family from orissa stateshe is also know about RAMAYAN, GEETA BHAGABATA, and other homework
(Homework?)
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Wants a woman who knows me better and can adjust with me forever. she may never create any difficulties in my life or her life by which the entire life can run smoothly. thank you
(The principle of running life smoothly was never so easy!) ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

she should be good looking and should have a service. she Should have one brother and one sister. she should be educated.
(ain't it unique !! 1 brother 1 sister criteria !) ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I am a happy-go-lucky kind of person. Enjoys every moments of life. I love to make friendship. Because friendship is a first step of love. Iam looking for my dreamgirl who will love me more than i. Because i love myself a lot. If u think that is u then why to late come on ........hold my hand forever !!!
(The dilwale dulhaniya effect)
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i am simple boy.I have lot of problem in my life because of my luck nowi am looking one gal she care me and love me lot lot lot
(I don't know why but this is one of my favorites
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My wife should be as 'Shivani' as in Kahani Ghar Ghar Ki and as Tanwerr as in KSBKBT......
(Ok I haven't seen these soaps but I am sure he must be demanding too much,ain't he?)
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i want a girl with no drinks if she wants she can wear jeans in house but while stepping out of house she should give respect to our cast
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HYE I AM A GOOD LOKING BOY,WHO HAS THE CAPABILITY TO MAKE ANY BODY TO LOUGH.I BELIEVE IN GOD AND ACCORDING TO ME FRIENDS ARE THE REALMESSENGER OF GOD. THE 3 THINGS I AM LOOKING FROM A GIRL ,THEY ARE 1.THEY MUST BELIEVE IN GOD.2. THEY HAVE TO LIKE MY PROFFESION AND THEY SHOULDNOT GET BORED WITH ME WHEN I WILL TRY TO MAKE THEM LOUGH.
(all of us are loughing{laughing})
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whatever she may be but she should feel that she is going to be someonebride and she must think of the future life if she is too like this she would be called the woman of the lamp
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i love my patner i marriage the patner ok i search my patner and i love thepatner ok thik hai the patner has a graduate ok
(I am again clueless but I liked the use of "ok". The person is suffering from "Ok-syndrome")
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HI IAM VERY COOL NUATHER OK MY HOBBY IS SEE T.V AND NEWS OK I HAVE 1 CARAND 1 BONWL OK MY MOTHER ALSO GOOD OK MY FARUET WORLD IS OK
(the "ok syndrome" again)
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I am pran my family history my two brother two sister and Father&mother sister complity marred
(somebody please explain in comments section how to get married'completely'?)
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iam very simpel and hanest. i have three sister one brother and parent. iam doing postal sarvice and tailor master my original resdence atkalahandi diste naw iam staing at rayagada dist.
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my name is muhamad and i am unmarried. pleaes you marrige me pleaes pleaes pleaes pleaes pleaes pleaes pleaes
(height of desperation! J )
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Iwant one girl who love me or my mother. she love me heartly or shehavea frank she's skin colour 'normal'not a black or not a whitey. IThink the main think is heart if your heart is beautiful then you are beautiful.but iam not a handsome guy or not a good looking. but my Mom say that Iam a good guy. My father already expired . THE CHOICE IS YOUR.bye bye.
(uttama purushan)
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iam kanan. i do owo businas.one sistar.he was marred.
(No comments)
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I AM LITTLE FAIR INDIAN COLOUR. I DON'T HAVE ANY HABIT.
(maybe the poor guy meant BAD habits)
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hello

am a good charactarised man. i want to run my life happily.idivorced my first wife.her charactor is not good'. i expect the goodminded and clean habits girl who may be in the same caste or other caste accepted ...
(but credit cards not accepted..???)
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my colour is black,but my heart is white.i like social service
(Zebra..???)
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i'm looking out for who lives in bombay, girl simple who trust me lotshould be roman catholic, LOVE ME ONLY.
(Now that criterion is a must, isn't it?)
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to be married on jan-2006. working woman perferable
(this guy has fixed the marriage date too! But he is yet to find a bride.I wish him best of luck on behalf of all of us. I am sure he willget one soon.) ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

i would like a beautyfull girl. and i do not want her any treasure. because girl is the maharani.
(Now she is going to be a lucky girl! Any takers?)
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ssc failed three times and worked with privated ltd company which not paying salary at present.
(Any takers again?)

A blog about being a twinsoul,a bestfriend and a sister....

4 months ago.....
25th august 2007...

Had a flight to catch at 10.30pm....I was about to leave for the US of A in a couple of hours.....for my MS in University of Cincinnati......With a gang of 11 ppl accompanying me till cincinnati, there was a picnic-tour-kinda excitement filled in me [:p]......with lotsa confusion prevailing evrywhere with the sudden bomblasts at a couple of places in hyderabad, there was more tension filled in the air than the sorrowful currents expected at that time........with all the roads packed with the typical hyderabadi traffic, the drive seemed adventurous with lotsa brainstorming taking place in my mind.....grazing the checklist, receiving the innumerable number of cals, giving last minute instructions to my bro.....n consciously or unconsciously refusing to register the hard fact in my mind tht i am actually leaving everyone for a minimum of 2 yrs.....
Reached airport....after a photo session n all infinetly growing instruction set from the family + relatives + friends, finally it was time to leave.....the final boarding time was almost closing in......more involved in meeting n getting introduced to the would-be-freinds, i slowly moved into the hall heading towards the checkin section after bidding a cheerful bye to all my loved ones.....yashu was allowed to stay with me till the final boarding cal due to spl permission managed by one of my friends :).......n we spoke for sometime.....a very casual talk.....n finally i started to leave after giving him an affectionate kiss.....n thts when he told me tht a surprise gift was secrety placed in my cabin baggage :)).....increasing my excitement beyond bound......he knws hw much i love surprises :)))......
waiting in the boarding room......i opened the baggage to take out the gift......beautifully wrapped with a cute giftwrap, i cud feel the auro of the love.....i opened it to find a small case and a small handwritten letter.....n the case bore something which was least expected......it contained a beautiful diamond pendant [:))))]......cudnt believe my eyes.......cudnt switch my gaze off the pendant....slowly i opened the letter attached.......the letter written by a brother to his sweetestheart.......n the sweet note brought me out of my reverie......the words made me realize what big deal it was........that i am flying off as far as 10,000 miles away from evryone......n that i cant meet all my beloved ones till min of 1 year....n that the life ahead is gonna be very diffent......n tht i will have to feel the absence of my bro beside me.......n tht i ll miss all the fun n his company......n tht i ll hav to wait for a year to even see him.......n there came rolling down a continous stream of tears with the sudden realization.....was almost choked with sorrow and fear and tension and despair and restlessness and a mixture of all negative feelings......cudnt do anything but cry......n indeed i was crying......crying real hard......crying and cursing the day my MS plan was born and this day when the plan became all real.....

yashu......whose companionship i am missing the most now......missing him soo badly.....a feeling which cant be expressed by mouth but eyes speak......letting out tears when least expected......its been 4 months now......n i still feel lonely even amidst a crowd.......”missing you” seems so common and less intensive word......but cant find any apt word for conveying how much i miss him.......in fact i m missing myself.....he is the only person with whom i am myself......i be myself.....i act myself......i stay myself......i talk what i want to talk.....i do what i want to do.....coz he is soo much like me......he is exactly like me......n we like eachother's company soo much......n all of a sudden, i land in this foreign land.......with all new ppl around......making his absence felt much more......
i see him daily.......his cute face prompts my hand to touch him.....but i am obstucted by the flat screen of my lappy......i talk to him daily.....his sweet talk makes me kiss him......but the feel of flying the kiss thru the phone never gives the real feel......the feel of kissing your baby brother......
ok so coming to the point now ( aahhh it took soo long to start the actual topic :P)......i wished to let him know how much i m missing him........yesterday was his bday.....n my lonliest day ever.....n he is 20 yrs old now.....[:o] he is growing up......but to me he is still like a baby :)).......he is my favourite.......i like him more than anyone or anything on this earth :D.......even more than cadbury's dairymilk :P........cant imagine life without him.......gives me confidence when i am down......makes me feel like the best person existing on the earth ( only next to him :P )......can remember all the things we did together.......n can only miss them more now.......the jokes understood by only both of us ;).....the chat and chat we always had ( 1st chat corresponds to samosa ragada chat :P and second chat is yahoo messenger chat :D ).....the counters and anti-counters for eachother's jokes......the lingo which noone else understud ;).......the tears of pride mummy used to get watching our affection :D......the tears he used to get when i scored gud marks [:p :p].......the combined studies for my external exams [:p]......the cute fights.......the letter writing competition :P which i used to win unanimously :p......the dairy i used to write :P.....the lengthy conversations which i miss the most :(((......the confidence and attitude he always used to teach me :))......the way in which he used to deal with things n cald it the smartest way :P.......the excuses we used to give mummy for freaking out everyday......all the activa rides when i used to sit behind and tell him how to ride it safely :P......all the car drives when we used to discuss everything under the sun( dnt ask if our car is topless :P........ under the sun means every topic possible :P)......the games we played together......chess in which i won over him :P......the memory game whose cards he remembers even now :P......the all possible card games we used to play for cash ;).......the money u used to lend me everytime i was broke......the way we were always partners in all crimes n mischiefs possible :P......the way we used to guess the culprit in all CID shows ;)......all the secrets which we shared with each other.......all the “wavelength” related discussion we had ;)......the way we used to wonder at how alike we and our thinking is......the way we enjoyed every second of our being together.......

And its been 20yrs now that i had been with him......every second having its own importance :))......hard to list down all the memories on paper but they definetly have their share of place in my mind :)).....writing about our relation had been an ordeal.....n i m sure i havnt done evn some justification in this blog.....coz its the most precious relation i cherish.....and describing it in words is a sure-failure task.....i am not so gud at words that i cn describe this love.....its all about being together for 20yrs.....its all about sharing everything.....its all about the perfect wavelength match......ITS ALL ABOUT BEING COMPLETELY UNDERSTOOD WITHOUT EVEN SPEAKING........ITS ALL ABOUT A SISTER-BROTHER LOVE

he is the reason i smile......he is the reason i laugh.....he is the reason i live......

Some songs for him :))....

VIDEO - 1

VIDEO - 2

The following is a story narrated by yashu when he jus started talking....the cutest audio ever.....i jus luvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv it.....

VIDEO - 3



love u chaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaala ra......
missing u bey.....:(((((

( Added 30min after publishing the above blog)
The following is the mail which yashu sent to all his friends after reading the above blog......ccing me in it......n i loved it soo much tht i cudnt help adding it here :D

Subject : The day i cried :D

" enti...the day i cried ani smiley ettadu ani thala gokkuntunnara...:P ante...inni telugu cinemalu chusi meeku eepatiki artham aipoi untadi ankuntan lendi..:P...those tears not sad tears...those happy tears..:)...(like i wud cry wen sme cute little gal says "i luv u" 2 me..:P...like dat ana maata..:)...happy tears means...tears which cme out coz of exceesive feeling wich is pleasant or smtimes wich is beyond ur control 2 limit it 2 ur heart..:D)...adi matteru...:) so....ika matter loki mohita laga jump chesthe...:P ninna rathri didi tho matladthunde...assalu...full senti tho start ana mata...dat...1st budday re...u nt ther...wid me...:(....nee chethho cake tinale ani..:(...(inka chala unnai...kani..meeku ivi chalu lendi..:P)...so chala sepu matladthunde...international call...1 n half hour ante...vodafone calling card lekapoi unte....ma intlo naku pelli fix ayyedi :D...so full cheppina...cheppina....chepthune unna..:)...enti visheshalu...em jarigina...ivi avi...:)...last ki...
yachu:"didi...manam idantha conversation...takkuva rates thone 150 oo 200 oo ayyi untade...antha worth A antava?" ani...(ante...ikkada meeru gamaninchalsdindi entante...nenu putti 1 day ne ayina..."over-action" lo chala pedda vaadini anamata:P)...appudu..
didi:"chi...150...200 rs em worth kadu....200$ worth" andi!:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D(appude nenu realise ayyanu....nenu entha pedda vadini aina...didi kanna chinnodine ani..:P:P:P)
so..ala ala..muddu mudduga matladeskoni....rathri 3am ki padukuntu talchukuntunna....jeejee(ante...muddu ga didi anamata..:) ) unte entha bagundu ani...assalu didi em gift ivvale ani mansu lo tittukuntune(:P) padukuntunna..:) kani....but...appudu naku teleedu...wat was in store 4 the next day morning!:))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))...(no!...didi din fly all the way 2 india 2 wish me...jus in case u fired dat wild gues!:P)...(ala kanna...ippudu chesina danike inka ekkuva happy unde nenu :P) ......

morning...11am...call lo matladthundeonline ra beh ani cheppi phone pettesindi...:)
manaki asale...holiday ante..chalu snanam ni dushman shushinsttu shustham..:)
so...direct comp meedake anamata...matladthunna matladthunna....voice chat anamata....:)
so..then..she sent me a link...dani blog di...cheppindi...nenu line lone unta...chadivi/...get bac 2 me ani..:)....
so...i opened...blog half chadivina tarvata...call cut chesesa...:D(if u din get y...refer 2 the subject of the mail :P).....i realised...melliga smthin is growin ani...the size of the drop wich was still inside my eye..:)....inka chaduthu chaduthu....the size incresed exponentially:P....n finally...oka fine sentence dagara ishtart anamata....:))))))))))))))))))))).....inka oka sari start aithe manam yedi aapam kada..;););)...heheheheh....inka full chatting danitho...asssssssssssssssssssssssssaaaaaaaaaaaaallllllllllllu emannnnnnnna undena!... abbbbbbbbbaaaaaaaabbbbbbbaaaaaaabbbbbbbbbb ..... so....DAT was my budday gift!!!!!!!!!!!!!:))))))))))))))))))))))))))))....n last lo dani dialogue.,.."nee budday roje iddam anukunna...:)..kani nee budday roju ninnu enduku edpinchadam ani ivvale:)"....asssssssssssssssaaaaaaalllllluuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu.......... :">:">:">:">:">:">:">:">:">:">:">:">....

so....adi andi matteru.....meeku intha cheppina tarvata meeku aa blog chadavali ani anipisthe address kinda undi..:D

itlu,eppuduki me muddula babu laao :)

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